Have you met him in person? You got to see his eyes when he smiles genuinely. They twinkle. And he could make me laugh and how! He is not an evil force or a Satan. He is a regular kid from a regular home, matter of fact, exceptional in his abilities. He was not born to fulfill this destiny. He chose this destiny. I have thought at length why he did that. He did this because I as his father failed him. His parens patriae failed him. I can’t sleep with this burden on my head. I don’t know how the state manages to stay hibernated. I know I could not save her from him. But I also know I could not save him from himself.